I don't know why you would love hating me, I don't hate you at all. EVER. I love seeing your face every day when I wake and laying beside you at night. The time I have spent with you this summer has been phenomenol, though we bicker and yell, it is just all fun. I feel as though I can never stay mad at you for long. The moment something is said, it is over and I just want to kiss you. I am so thankful that we have been fortunate enough to find each other so early in life. I am thankful that we had so many years to learn and grow with one another. I firmly believe that those were the difficult years, that things can only improve from here on. There are still many things to we have yet to discover about ourselves and each other, but with time we will learn to accept them.

You must learn that I need to be left alone while I work, that the tiniest bit of interruption can be an incredibly burdensome distraction. I can concentrate for long spurts at a time because I do not like to leave until my task is complete. Usually I will divide my work into stages and once each stage is finished. I will allow myself a distraction for an hour or two before I resume work. So do not feel as though I am pushing you away while I work, that you are an annoyance, in fact it is quite the opposite. I love you so dearly that your mear presence in the room prevents me from working because I want to spend time with you despite my work. This is why it is necessary for me to kick you out of the room. Just give me time to work and I will come to you when I am ready for a break.

I love you so much darling that some times I worry that we are too happy, that one day we will find that this was just the honeymoon phase and out happiness will vanish with time. I don't think this will be the case, but sometimes the thought sneaks into the back of my mind. I plan to spend the rest of my days with you and to love you just as long.

You texted me tonight while i was doing hw because you missed me and wanted to molest me, but were discouraged by my hw. I tried to keep you but you went to bed. Its too bad though because it got me all worked up, so much so that I had to stop what i was doing and pleasure myself. I miss you too darling. I miss everything about you. I cant wait to see you this summer and we can spend our nights together once more. Where is your embrace when I yearn to feel it most? Where are your kisses? Why do they feel so distant?